Sanat

Before the light, before the names, before this beating heart
I stood outside the boundary and I read the terms and signed
I saw the weight laid on the table: every load this life would bring
And I said: I'll take the whole of it - yes, yes to everything

So when they call it burden, when they pity what I hold
The mortgage and the midnights and the fevers and the cold
I remember no one drafted me - I volunteered for storm
And what looks like heavy lifting is a promise keeping warm

You can't put down what you are
And I am what I love

I chose the weight
I would choose it all again
The carrying was never chains, love
It's my arms around my life
Weight is only love with gravity
It's how you know that it's real
I chose the weight, I chose the weight
And the weight is why I feel

Ask the roots why they go deeper
Ask the keel why it rides low
Ask the stones beneath the cathedral
Why they hold and hold and hold
Not a single one is trapped there
Every one of them would say:
This is not my imprisonment
This is my part in the play

I chose the weight
I would choose it all again
The carrying was never chains, love
It's my arms around my life
Weight is only love with gravity
It's how you know that it's real
I chose the weight, I chose the weight
And the weight is why I feel

I chose the weight
Before the very first sunrise
I read the boundary conditions
With my own eternal eyes
And I signed with all my lifetimes
And I'd sign it all again
The weight is where the love is
The weight is why I came

Put it on my shoulders
I know why it's mine
I signed before the sunrise
I signed